Ok I think the emotions are starting to hit.  I'm ready to cry.  This is my last official day as a senior of high school.  Where did all the time go?  It feels like only now that I started kindergarten.  Time flew by so fast.  I didn't realize how fast it went by until now. 

FATHER TIME WHY DON'T YOU JUST TEAR OUT MY HEART ALREADY?!?!?!?!

Man....

Ok I was supposed to check out earlier but couldn't because I didn't have my letter with my parents signature.  So I gave my braclet giving seniors the right to free dress to my friend telling her I would wait for her until she finished, got distracted by going to help my other friend but he didn't need me b/c his teacher was there, so then I went to Midkiff, which is our library.

Ok that long winded intro is outof the way.

So I walked into Midkiff just when the Concert Glee guys were singing.  Now, if you heard any of Kamehameha's guys sing, you would know what kind of beauty I'm talking about.

These guys sang with such a passion that made every fiber of my very being relaxed.  For a moment, I forgot about my stress, forgot about my sorrow, forgot everything negative that built up inside of me.

I didn't know what they were saying because they sang in Hawaiian but they sounded beautiful.  This was the second time I heard a group of young men with raw talent sing so beautifully.  Nothing could match them.  Well, our senior boys could top them, but that's besides the point.

I wish I recorded everything.  I could've shown you it, but I didn't.  But if you want to see our Senior men's song, just youtube it.  I can't post our song here, but just go to Youtube.com and type in Kamehameha Schools 2009 Senior Men.

I think I've been drained of all emotions.  I feel nothing.  No stress, no sorrow, no happiness, no excitement, nothing.  I should be studying, which I am, but I feel no stress.  I'm sure I'll feel it the day of the finals and graduation, but not now.

I'm honestly scared for two finals.  That's probably the only emotion I have.  Math final and Hawaiian History final.  Math because I've forgotten most everything I've been taught.  Hawaiian History because I suck at history.

Ok so I apperently have a really bad ingrown toenail which turned into an infection.  I have had a history of ingrown toenails mostly because I cut my nails really short and I've both my big toe nails a few times.  So I'm currently taking antibiotics, well since Saturday, and the doctor said that if it didn't improve on Tuesday, I'll have to go back to the doctors for a checkup.  It hasn't gotten significantly better, but it did get less red and a bit less sore. 

Terrible English, I know.  I dont' care.  Suck on it.

Anyways, I might need surgery for my toe to get the ingrown toenail out.

School is about to end soon for me and already I missed a due date for an assignment but it's ok because I'll get partial credit for it if I turn it in before next week Monday.

I am almost finished with a commercial for my advanced speech class.  We were given a project where we had to create a product that would benifit the community.  I was paried with two other girls and we made an educational program that twould help stimulate the high school mind and hopefully do much better in their studies.  It's called Education Enhancement and it is a technology based education that is taken home on CD's with elaborate step by step examples when needed.  All of this is due tomorrow.  We start our speeches sometime this week.

I also have a project for Haqwaiian History due this Friday and didn't even start on it yet.  EEP!!!!  It's on Hawaii's process of becoming a state.  I'tll be easy.  It has to be 3-5 pages with sources in the paper and I need at least two books for the project, so I'm not stressing.

I also have another Hawaiian History project due on the last day of class.  It's a cultural immersion project and I decided to do Hawaiian art.  We have to have at least two hours working on our projct and it has to somehow reflect who we are as a Hawaiian.  For my project, I am making a pot with flowers on the upper part, my aumakua (spiritual animal), which is the shark, in the middle, and the Hawaiian triangles on the bottom.

I decided to use those images in that order for many reasons.  I put the flowers on the top because when I am out and about, I have this happyness that people can sense, even though they may judge me on how I look. 

I chose the shark not only because it's my aumakua,  but because I believe that sharks are powerful creatures who are willing to fight for something they want.  Even though I am not that kind of perosn, I am making progress.  I am, however, strong in a family sense.  I am very protective about my family and those close  to me and people will find that out sooner or later.  I put the shark in the middle of the pot to show that I have a strong center.

I chose the Hawaiian triangles becuase they represent a strong base.  I was raised to honor and respect my elders and to not lash out to anyone.